There are next to no words to describe how bad I feel right now. I had to discuss business with one of my best friends. He put it simple: I am willing to do anything, if you can explain to me, why I should do it. Meaning: for such and such a price. As we have – due to our perspective outlook on the very same thing – a different view of the matter, I could not explain, not in so few and simple words. And I was not as well prepaired as I should have been. Having it all down to figures, the turnover, the profit, to the very last cent. Because a lot of what makes this side of the business valuable to me, I couldn’t ever pay for, if one put figures on the bottom line. For instance having someon like him on the team. And a lot that makes this side of the business valuable to him, we’ve got to have there, whether he makes money out of it or not. There are a lot of things in this wordly world, that can not be measured in figures and cents. So it all boils down to: Do you want to stay and work with us, everyone for their own reasons and to the good of it all?
We both know that the business we were discussing is worth both our whiles. The one thing I feel, I’ve been lacking in, is: I should have given him reasons to stay. Above the obvious goal to be able to earn a living. Which he always will. Out of his own quality. He was trying to push me over the edge of the doable. I felt as if I was lacking in some way. Not giving him deathproof reason in dollars and dimes. But: figures are one thing. The other thing he knows as well as I do: give this baby it’s proper attention and it will blossom. And he was sitting there, just asking, not giving. It is going to be his baby. I trust him to do well. Why is he turning to me for a business plan? Maybe he is in no position to give. But neither am I. If I had that much leeway, trust me, I would do it myself. But this is, where he can excel. So what are we to do? I’ll have to think about it. And quickly so.
Death Cab for Cuties, A lack of color
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